Apr 29, 2015

All the Feels

This weekend was jam packed, as per the usual with us.

But Sunday was the highlight.  We got up early in the morning and headed to the March of Dimes walk in honor of Sophia.  She amazingly did well for me having to wake her up an hour before she usually gets up.  I was able to get her up, dressed, fed and out the door by 7:34am.  WIN.

We met up with our friends and family who met us there and let me just say, I was so overwhelmed with emotions.  I am so grateful for our friends and family who donated and joined us on Sunday.  Their never ending support is amazing and appreciated so much.

We walked our little butts off and had such a great time.  The team raised $1340!!!!!!  AMAZING.

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I am excited to start this tradition every year.  Next year Sophia will be able to walk! CRAZY!

Apr 22, 2015

Kicking my migraines in the ass

I can now add neurologist to the list of doctors I have seen in my life.

Yesterday, I finally saw one to talk about my migraines.  I have always suffered from migraines since high school, but in the last three years they have gotten worse.  Well, after I gave birth they have become unbearable. I have been getting 1-2 migraines a week lasting at least two days.  I tried everything I could.  Even acupuncture.  But nothing seems to work.  So I gave in and went to see the doctor about pain management with prescription meds.  We have a plan in place that may have to be tweaked as we go along, but I am just glad that there is a possibility that I will have some relief in the near future. I was very hesitant to take prescription drugs because of how strong they are, but I also am losing my quality of life because of these migraines.  I had to choose.  So here's to hoping that this new plan works.

Any migraine sufferers out there going through the same experience?

Apr 20, 2015

The Blogging Bug

It has been a LONG time since I've spent over an hour working on this blog and fix some bugs I have been having.  It brought me back to the first days of blogging when I would spend hours trying to figure out HTML coding and wondering how I managed to create a new background, but lose buttons and sidebars all at the same time.  Blogging sure has come a long way for me.

It's 11:13pm right now and here I am for the second time today writing on this blog.  Clearly whatever was holding me back from this space of mine has been lifted.  Not sure what it was.  It could be that today was tough for me.  Maybe that's what I finally needed to get my mojo back.  I felt myself today crawling into a hole I was digging.... because it's easy to do that.  It's easy to slip into the background.  Today I was just having a moment.  That's when I realized that I haven't done what I love to do... write in this space of mine.  The writing helps.  It makes me feel whole.  It makes me vent and also share good news.  It makes me who I am.  Blogging is a big part of my life.  For the last several years I have documented my life with you all.  The other day I went back and just started clicking on random posts to read.  I laughed, I cried.  My memories were always in my head, but having them written down helped me appreciate those memories. It reminded me of why I started this blog in the first place.

I don't blog for you, I blog for me.

And that is all I need.

VIP status, blates, baby shower and movies.... weekend rolled up into one

This weekend was jam packed.

Friday night we had a chance to be VIP at the Red Bulls soccer game.  Last season, season ticket holders where entered  into 30 days of giveaway.  Hubs and I were lucky to have won twice.  One of the prizes was a soccer ball, and the second prize was field seats for a game in 2015 season.  We chose Friday night and it was so awesome.  The seats we sat in cost $150.00 per person.  INSANE.  Thank goodness we won those tickets because we would never pay that much for one game.  When we arrived at the arena, we walked through the red carpet through the club doors.  They gave us wrist bands and VIP badges.  We then got escorted to our seats.  We were so close to the sideline that I can smell the sweat off the players.  Not really because that's gross but you get the idea of how close we are.  We had such a great time... we also had the privilege to hang out in the club lounge where there was free food.  Felt like a rock star. The best part, it was a beautiful night out and perfect weather.

Saturday we had a family blate!!!  Met up with Alexa and Nikki to have dinner with the husbands and babies.  Had such a good time and I still can't believe that #babybigtruck is going to be 1!!! Seems just like yesterday Nikki shared the news that she was having a baby!  Also, it was the first time that Sophia sat in a high chair at restaurant.... she's getting so big!

Sunday I had my dear friends baby shower to attend.  I have known her since my first real job and we have kept close ever since.  I am so excited for her and they are blessed with a baby girl so Sophia will have another play mate!!!!  She looked AMAZING.  The food was delish and her family brought in polish desserts which are fantastic!  Then after we dropped Sophia off at my mom's house who so kindly watched her while hubs and I got to enjoy a movie date to see Furious 7.  It was great and included The Rock which made perfect eye candy.

Somewhere in between that weekend I was able to get some sleep and battled another migraine... but I enjoyed the weekend the best I could so that's what really counts.

Hope you all had a good weekend.  Did you do anything exciting?

Apr 15, 2015

Call me Ken

Today you can feel free to call me Ken.  Since I sound like chain smoking man thanks to a cold I'm desperately trying to battle, I figured people can shorten my name to Ken.  That way, it goes with my manly deep voice I am sporting right now.

So I am walking around work in my own little fog.  I took some Mucinex this morning to help with the nasal congestion but I am not 100% sure if it's a non-drowsy medication, because right now I can fall asleep with my head up at my desk.  Surely this won't bode well when I have to drive home.  I don't know if I can make it throughout the whole day feeling the way I do. Sucks major ass.

Sophia was up at 5am this morning.  Thankfully I was able to put the paci in and she fell right back to sleep.  I also had to put the heat on because I didn't realize how cold it was going to get overnight.  She must have also been cold.  Who knows.  At least in my Nyquil drugged stage, I was able to fall right back to sleep for another hour before alarm went off.

Can I just ask you all to send some good vibes my way.  I have a couple of things I am working on and would appreciate good vibes.

Happy Wednesday and I hope you are not suffering from cold/allergies/sinuses like I am right now.  If you are, sorry and grab some soup and watch Netflix.  WISH I was doing that right now.

Apr 14, 2015

Because sometimes you just need a break

It's been a long time since I've visited this space of mine.  I won't bore with you excuses of why I was gone.  I just needed a break.  I can feel myself losing every fiber of me.  I have been trying to get back into a normal routine, but I think I realized that as a parent, there is no normal routine.  Something new pops up every day.  One thing for sure is that I miss this space.  I miss my connection with you all, and that makes me sad.  This is something that I did because I wanted to, not because I saw someone else doing it and wanted to copy them.  I did this for me, to write and be expressive about my life.  I won't say that I'm back for good because life doesn't allow guarantees, but I will say that I want to write alot more than I have these past couple of months. 

So onto the writing... let me give you a quick life recap:

  • I have purple hair 
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  • I have met my goal for donations for the March of Dimes walk in honor of Sophia.  Can't wait to walk with friends and family on April 26th.
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  • Sophia has been getting up in the middle of the night these past week and it's making hubs and I zombies.  I am pretty sure it might be her top teeth coming in.  Hoping we can get past this stage pretty quickly.  
  • I currently feel like shit today and  hoping I can get better ASAP. 
  • Sophia had an early intervention evaluation on Monday morning and it was determined that she qualifies for help in two areas out of five.  I'm glad we were proactive in getting the evaluation and ready for the next steps to help her "catch up".  But I had to relive my NICU experience and it really hit me again that I went through a traumatic experience.  But I am happy to report, that I am getting better day by day with accepting what happened. 
  • Sadie has been on medicine for a month since blood work showed she had elevated liver enzymes.  I am praying that when we go to back to vet for follow up, that blood work is good.  If not, there seems to be talks around liver disease.  I can't handle if my other baby girl is sick, this may truly put me over the edge.  My poor furbaby. 
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  • Work is good.  For once, I am actually caught up and the craziness has died down a bit which helped me really get my work groove on track. Here's to hoping I can continue to have a work groove.  
  • We may be booking our first vacation with Sophia for this year.... this could be exciting and also scary to travel with baby girl who will just be about one by that time. 
  • My migraines have gotten worse since I have given birth.  Tremendously worse.  So I have been trying acupuncture and can't really tell you if it's working or not.  But I am seeing a neurologist next week to make sure my brain is OK and there's nothing else that may be causing the severe migraines.  Here's to hoping I can get some relief hopefully soon. And hoping for good results. 
That seems to be life in a nutshell at the current moment... or as much as my DayQuil fog brain can manage to think up. 

Happy Tuesday my peeps.