Officially unemployed

I wrote this post down on a piece of paper in an empty office.  Today was my last day at work.  Everything has been thrown out.  All of our equipment, desks, and phones are gone.  I have nothing to do.  We are just waiting for the end of the day.  It's a bittersweet day.  For some people who work here, they have been with the company for 30 years.  This place has become their home.  It's a tougher day for them than me.  I've only been here for 2 years, but I've grown to be a part of this family.  They welcomed me with open arms and I am grateful.  I am sad, angry, happy, positive about this whole situation.  All I know is that I need to remain positive.  Yes, the situation sucks major ass.  I am officially unemployed.  That shit scares me.  But there's a reason this happened.  I may not see it now or understand it, but I know God has a plan for me and this includes losing my job and going on the journey to find my new path.  So I just ask you to keep me in your prayers while I embark on this new journey.  And please pray for all the people who lost their jobs today as well.  We all can use the prayers.

I came home today and no joke, cried.  Because it's emotional.  I feel so lost but I know that I am really not.  Some of my close friends were texting me lifting my spirits up.  Seriously, if it wasn't for them, I probably would have balled for much longer.  Then when I came home, I had a card in the mail from my bestie Raff.  I was totally confused because I had no idea why she would be sending me a card.  As soon as I opened it, I figured it out. She sent me a get well card.... for my heart.  She wrote such an amazing message and it hit me... my friends are in my corner rooting for me, so why the heck am I not rooting for myself?  That card changed my attitude that very moment.  Raff, you hit it on the nail.  Thank you and love you! You always know when I am so down in the dumps... how you know is beyond me, but you do.  Guess  that's why God meant for us to meet each other freshman year of college.  I am so grateful to have you as my friend!

My husband, holy crap is that man patient.  I got all emotional when he came home early from work to be with me.  But all I needed was a hug from him.  And I got it. He kept telling me how lucky I am and that it will be OK.  To take this time to enjoy.  No reason to be depressed. He's right. I knew I married him for a reason.  Hubs, I love you so much and so glad that even through my rough anxiety filled times, you still are by my side.  You are awesome.

As always, thanks bloggy friends for your encouraging words and support.  Your tweets and comments put a smile on my face.  Seriously, you all rock!