Nov 11, 2015

The shit that happens when you are a working mama

It is no easy task working a full time job while being a mama and a wife.  These past weeks at work have proven to me something that I said I would never do... take work home with me often.  Now, taking work with me home every now and then is OK.  Whether I have some catching up to do or just need to get something done that is urgent.  But lately, I have been opening up my work laptop more often than I care for... all while baby giggles is with me.  At first it was because there is so much shit blowing up at work that it was just impossible to do everything during the day and for my own sanity I needed to get some stuff out of the way... but what I learned yesterday.  IT'S NOT WORTH IT.  When I work, I'm all in. I will do whatever I possibly can to get stuff out the door... but lately, work has been so bad that it's impossible to do that anymore, especially when a lot of other people don't have the same mindset as you.  So last night as I held a child who cried every time I put her down while cooking dinner and having my work laptop open on the counter top... that's when I realized I don't need to do this anymore.  I put in 250% now... so why am I putting that extra at home when I should be enjoying my time with  my family?  Because clearly I wasn't thinking.

But isn't this the battle with working moms all the time?  Being a mother is a full time job... on top of a working full time job... and then being a wife.

Let's get real though, this is the life of a working mom...

  • Gets up earlier than usual in morning to prepare bottles, diaper bags, etc. 
  • For some, wake up a baby and go through morning routine and get ready for daycare drop off. 
  • Coffee... grab the coffee because if not, you DAY IS RUINED AND YOU CAN'T FUNCTION. 
  • Go to work and pray that you outfit matches because most of the time, moms are getting ready in the dark.  Me, I get ready in the dark and yesterday I wasn't entirely too sure if my outfit made sense until I ask co-workers and they said "yeah you are great!"...  Win #1 of the day 
  • We work all day while constantly checking our cell phones in case a call comes in about the child.  Because you just never know when you will literally need to drop what you are doing to run home. 
  • Miss your child all day long.  This gets easier with time, but I know some mamas have a harder time than others. 
  • Grab more coffee... you know, to get you through that 4th meeting of the day that is most likely useless. 
  • Go the bathroom at 2pm at that's when you realize you have spit up on shirt.  yay!  This is of course AFTER you made a big presentation in front of all the big bosses. 
  • Shove your lunch down your throat to continue working... of course that's IF you even have time to eat. 
  • 4pm.... repeat to yourself how much time you have left and all the things you have to do when you get home. 
  • 5pm... realize you never defrosted meat for dinner.  HAPPENS TO ME EVERY FREAKING DAY. ugh. 
  • Sit in 45 minutes worth of traffic because people don't know how to drive. 
  • Get home and spend a few minutes with child before you decide what you can put together and call "dinner". 
  • Attempt to cook dinner with a child who is now standing in the kitchen playing with the knobs from the stove while you curse at yourself for not getting a safety gate that fits the wide opening of your kitchen. 
  • Pry child off while cooking and put TV on to entice her to stay in living room and curse at yourself for being a bad mother because you just sat your child in front of the TV so you can finish cooking food that will most likely get burnt after you turn away to yell at the dog who is french kissing your child who by the way thinks it's hilarious. 
  • The hubs walks through door and you think you have relief... but no, that never really works that way either when you have a child who just wants to be with mama because oh hey separation anxiety. 
  • Eat burnt dinner and then will yourself out of the seat to wash the dishes. 
  • Oh, it's 8pm and now you have to give child bath and bend over so your back can break even more.  
  • Make yet again another bottle of milk and hope your child falls asleep early today so you can at least enjoy 10 minutes of interrupted sitting. 
  • 10:30pm and child is partying it up and you are just sitting there thinking I am so tired and need to go to bed why won't she go to sleep. 
  • Baby is asleep and you feel like a mac truck hit you. 
  • Sleep and then get woken up 3 times throughout the night thanks to teeth that are bursting their way through your child's gums. 
  • Wake up and repeat.... oh hey new day. 

I am sure lots of mama's can relate to some or all of these things.  It's a hard life we lead, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.  

I am SO grateful that I have a job.  I am SO grateful that I can be a mama.  I am SO grateful for the crazy hectic life I lead.... because it means I am living. 

Now, I just need to keep repeating that to myself 500x over and over again when I have those particularly bad days. 

And to my working mama's... 

Nov 4, 2015

Throw me a towel

Drowning.

I am literally drowning in work thanks to being in season and a work load that is absolutely insane.  It's non-stop when I get to work and even when I get home.  But this is expected since it's our busiest season.  I knew this going in and just rolling with it and trying to stay afloat.

This cup right here, IT IS MY MANTRA.

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Oh how I wish drinking wine at work wasn't frowned upon.  I am pretty sure it would help my anxiety with the work coming through.  Maybe I can send that up to upper management as a recommendation.  That should go over well.

By the way, if you want to grab one of these for yourself, head over to Love In The City etsy shop and snag one!  She was awesome to work with and the cup came in the mail really fast!


Nov 2, 2015

Halloween and Marathons

It's November, how in the world did that happen.

And I know, I've been gone, for a long time and it kills me.  But when life is happening, sometimes you just need to step back and figure it out.  I think that's what I am doing now... hoping to figure it out.

But today I want to talk about how our Halloween went.  On Friday, work had a trick or treat event and the hubs was able to leave work early and bring Sophia along.  She was an owl for Halloween and let me tell you, it was quite hilarious.  This is best part of being a parent... dressing up your kids and laughing on the inside on how cute and funny they look.  Then Saturday we took the niece and nephew out for trick or treating.  I was looking forward to Saturday walking around with the kids while I strolled Sophia along.  Next year, she will be walking up and down the steps.. it's going to be so crazy! It's exciting to know that this will be our thing we do every year now with her.  The weather was great so that was a plus.  We enjoyed our time and got home exhausted!

Then Sunday morning we packed up and headed into the city.  Our dear friend was here from Florida ready to run the NYC marathon.  We were able to cheer him on and it was the greatest experience ever.  It's amazing to see so many people running for different reasons.  You can see some of them in pain and with the look of defeat... but we cheered for them, complete strangers, and they looked at us and gave a smile and kept running.  I don't think people realized that cheering really does help them get through those miles.  A lot of runners even wrote their names on their shirts so we started cheering for them via name.  It was hilarious because they would look at us with the "Do I know you face?" but we know that for some, we kept them going.  Our friend look SO GREAT running.  He had such a great pace and his face lit up when he heard us screaming like crazy when he passed.  We are so proud of him.  He did such an amazing job and I was honored to be there cheering him on as he embarked on this journey in memory of his mom.

What I also realized is that we live so close to the city, but rarely take advantage.  I can't stand going into the city.  It's just not my thing.  But yesterday I stood there underneath the World Trade center and thought to myself, this is an iconic place that we can be in within a half hour... how lucky am I to be able to enjoy it.  I know there are many of you who dream of a vacation in NYC because it's NYC! I felt like I never took advantage of living next to a place that everyone wants to visit once in their lifetime.  And now that we had ventured in the city with Sophia and stroller and diaper bag and EVERYTHING THAT GOES ALONG WITH TOTING A CHILD AROUND.. I realized, it wasn't that bad. We definitely got a workout going up and down stairs to subway with baby and stroller... but we made it. We had fun.  We can do this again.  I look forward to the next time we can go into the city to enjoy it.  Definitely a must.