May 13, 2015

When bath time drives you to drink

All it took was bath time.  Sophia HATES it.  When I mean hate, I mean as in screams bloody murder while arching her back hate.  I've tried every time I give her a bath to push through bending over and putting all my strength in her just to hold her tight so she doesn't slip out of my arms from the slippery mess we both are.  How is it that babies become super strong all of a sudden?  I am at the point where I have no idea what to do but go through pretty much hell to give her a bath that last 5 minutes.  And last night, that's all it took.  It just took me giving her a bath with her screaming and crying and moving around.  That's all it took for me to slip right back into that "What the hell did I do to her that she hates it."  All I am thinking is, was it the premature birth that was traumatizing for the BOTH of us.  Then that brought back those memories.... and within 10 minutes of me sitting down with her while she slept after the horrific bath time, I spiraled down into the flash backs of what we both went through.  Just when I thought I was OK with it, I realized I wasn't.  I know I will never be.  But I honestly thought that moments like last night, where I felt like I was about to have a panic attack, wouldn't happen again.

I know that we both were one of the lucky ones, but the fact that we both went through a very traumatizing event is still very fresh in my mind. Day by day is what I need to remind myself.  Day by day.

Now, for your mamas, whether you had preemies or not, please tell me your bath time secrets... because I don't think I can handle another bath time.  Seriously...help a mama out!

Now someone pass me my bottle of wine...

3 comments:

MilitaryPugWife said...

Oh gosh. So sorry to hear this. I hope it gets easier for you both!

Jen said...

:( I have no tips, I really hope that it gets easier. Hugs!

Bryna Messmer said...

How about just a sponge bath? Or just put the littlest water in the bottom, don't put her in it yet. Sit on the side and splash it together. Make it fun and maybe she will want to get in it. It might take a lot of sponge baths before she OK with being in it....
Just my 2¢ :-)