Aug 7, 2014

And here we are

Here we are at 30 weeks pregnant...



And here we have a crib...



and here we are with the beginning of football season...



And here we are with Sadie holding hands with the hubs...



It's crazy how time has flown by.  I can't believe that in about 10 weeks I will be holding baby giggles in my hands.  That is just mind boggling.  Feels just like yesterday I found out I was pregnant.

Work has been going good and it has also hit me that I am leaving this place soon.  I legit was super sad on  Tuesday as I thought about it.  I am on contract here so it's not like I'm leaving on maternity leave and coming back.  I don't have that guarantee.  I am going along assuming that my last day is going to be my last day.  Even through the stressful days, I LOVE my job and what I do. I LOVE working with such an awesome team.  I'm going to really miss it and I feel like this happens once again to me.  My last job moved to SC and I was laid off.  It was hard because I loved what I did there and I cried hard on that last day.  Working with the people made work fun and it was hard for all of us to say our goodbyes.  And here I am again in the same situation made worse by raging pregnancy hormones.  I really love it here and am going to miss the team I work with like crazy.  I have never met a team that took the most stressful days in stride.  We laugh a lot while we learn a lot from each other.  I'm grateful for the opportunity but it's still going to hurt that last day.  I don't know what I will do after.  I know that being a stay at home mom is not an option and even if it was, I think I would still want to work.  Sound weird.  That idea may change too when baby giggles is here so who knows.  But it's a scary thought not knowing.  Maybe I can come back to this job.  Maybe my time here is done.  As soon as this baby pops out, I have to start looking for a new job.  Talk about adding stress on top of stress of being a first time mom.  But I have to do it, I don't have a choice.

So needless to say, I am treasuring my last few weeks at work and thankful everyday to God that I even have a job.  I know in the end, it will all work out the way it's suppose to.  I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.  We may not be happy when stuff happens, but it is what it is.  Must think positive happy thoughts so for the rest of this week, I am banking on those thoughts to get me through the next couple of weeks.

So here we are.... soon to be parents.

CRAZINESS.

4 comments:

shay said...

aw, hoping everything works out with the job and you can go back there! i can't believe how fast time is flying by!

Britt said...

Man time DOES fly! You're about 10 weeks ahead of me so it's been crazy to watch. I feel like nothing makes you more aware of how fast time passes than seeing someone go through pregnancy. I'm so excited for you!

Jen said...

Gosh time is flying. I'm sorry about the job I know it has to be bittersweet.

Michael said...

I'm sorry about your job. Leaving when YOU want is one thing, but when you really enjoy it... :(