Restoring my Faith

Take me back to the time 

When I was maybe eight or nine 

And I believed 

when jesus walked on waters blue 

and If he helped me I could to 

If I believed

Before rational analysis and systematic thinking 

Robbed me of a sweet simplicity 

When wonders and when mysterys 

Were far less often silly dreams 

and Childhood fantasys

CHORUS: 

Help me believe 

'cause I don't want to miss any miracles 

Maybe i'd see 

Much better by closing my eyes 

and I would shed this grown up skin I'm in 

To touch an Angels wing 

And I would be free 

Help me believe

When mustard seeds made mountians move 

A burning bush that spoke for you 

was good enough 

when manna fell from heavens high 

Just because you told the sky to open up

Am I to wise to recognize that everythin uncertain 

is certainly a possibility 

When logic fails my reasoning 

and science crushes underneath 

The weight of all that is unseen

CHORUS

When someone elses education 

plays upon my reservation 

I'm the first to cave 

I'm the first to bleed 

If I abondoned all that seeks 

To make my faith informed and chic 

Could you? 

would you? 

show your self to me?

CHORUS

-Help Me Believe by Nichole Nordeman

Do you ever get into one of those lows that just hang over your head for a while until you finally notice it?  The beauty of this blogging thing is that I can write out emotions much better than speaking them to myself let alone other people.

There is this low over my head that I have just been trying to ignore for a while, but with events going on around, it's making that low even more annoying.  But that is life, we have our highs and the lows.  So I am just trying to figure things out on my own before I even let other people in.  Why by myself?  Because sometimes the only person you need to listen to is yourself.  I need to remember that I am human and not perfect.  I need to remember that I am not suppose to have all the answers.  I need to remember my faith and make that a priority in my life because it just simply makes me better. Faith, that's all it is, the answer to life.  If you have faith, you are good to go.

So, I am remembering my faith and going with it.

I know there is a reason that God made blogging a passion for me.  Duh, He always knows whats best.  This is my outlet.  This is what makes me feel good.  Writing words down is the best therapy out there.  I know some of you bloggers have remained anonymous and that don't share it with friends and family.  I get it.  Sometimes the people in our lives mess up our mind thinking and when we blog, they don't get it.  Sometimes I wish I didn't share this little space on the Internet of mine with my friends and family.  Because they just don't get it, plain and simple.  But you guys get it.  So I am thankful for that.  Thank you for support and inspiring words when I am just not having a good day.  It helps me to know that I am not alone.

I am going through a funk that for now, is cruising through my life for a bit.  But taking today to re-focus on my faith has me one step closer to reaching another high in my life.  Bare with me while I struggle to figure out how to best blog about it.  But I vowed that this blog of mine is for me but also for other people who are reading this.  If you're having a bad day, I want you to know that you are not alone and I am here for you.  Even if I am having a bad day as well.  We can have bad days together and let's just giggle about it.  Even through bad times I WILL find something to giggle about because I know it works to make us feel better.

So, cheers to us bloggers who get it.  Cheers to us knowing why we chose to share our lives with other bloggers and for everyone to read.  We know what we are doing, right guys?  YES WE DO.

I didn't anticipate this post being long and all deep... but my fingers wouldn't stop typing.  All I intended was to put the lyrics up to the song.

Isn't it funny how thinking you have nothing to write, then BAM... all of this comes out.

Oh blogging how you make me laugh sometimes.

Present Moment

Why am I feeling so guilty?

Why am I holding my breath?

Worry 'bout everyone but me

I just keep losing myself

Tell me it's nothing

Try to convince me

That I'm not drowning

Oh let me tell you, I am

- partial lyrics from song

No, I am Not Dead

I haven't written since last Friday. Shame on me.  I will say it was due to some circumstances.

1. It was bachelorette party weekend
2. Monday I woke up with a migraine which when you wake up with one already on full force, it's a day that I will be in bed with multiple ice packs on my head PRAYING for it to go away by at least 5pm. 
3. Tuesday I woke up feeling like shit again, not due to another migraine but to a sinus infection. 
4. Wednesday I woke up feeling even worse. 
5. Today, I am hanging in there. 

So Monday I had to take off of work so it's been busy here trying to catch up on everything hence by the time I get home, I don't want to look at a computer screen, but rather lay out and get as much rest as possible to start feeling better quicker.

I promise you that tomorrow I will bring you a post filled with pics from the weekend, but for the time being, I will leave you with this one as a teaser to the shenanigans we encountered. 

Yes, that is penis shaped pasta.  And yes, we did eat some penis shaped pasta. 

Bachelorette Party Weekend Here I Come!

Let me just tell you that today after work I will be in the car headed to a weekend filled with bachelorette festivities.  We will be celebrating this bride-to-be!

Like how I got all fancy with the color spotting... Yep, thanks to a simple app. Photography made easy. 

Which may include the following:

• drinking... alcohol to be exact
• pina coladas
• dancing
• dinner
• activities
• drinking... wine to be exact
• shenanigans
• LOTS of shenanigans
• fun times with the girls
• making memories
• drinking... hard liquor to be exact

Get my drift???  So, I will be MIA this weekend in blog land, but keep a look out on my Instagram which I am pretty sure is going to include some fun and maybe wild pics.  

Please also keep my cousin in your prayers.  She was struck by a car on her way home from class the other night and is stable in ICU.  Pray for a speedy recovery!  Thank you to all. 

Have an awesome weekend and remember to enjoy every minute! 

So Over It - #BloggerProbs

These are a few things I have seen over the past couple of months in good ole blog land.

Group Giveaways
Just stop with these.  I have seen way too many bloggers complain about not receiving all the gifts and the hell it is to track down each person.  Not worth it. Trust me. Even if you host it and have nothing to do with the specific people who are part of the giveaway, you will still look bad in the end because you hosted.  I have had "got lost in the mail", "so sorry I will do it soon it's been crazy busy", "I emailed egift card already and it says you got it", etc.  Get my drift.

Big Time Blogger Turn Into Sponsoring/Review Robots
We have all had that one "big time" blogger who we loved because they wrote funny and awesome blog posts. Then BAM, every other post is a sponsored post.  It starts to seem that the Blogger LOVES everything... from a type of shirt to a wreath from an etsy shop.  You are not fooling us big time bloggers, we know you don't REALLY like all that stuff.

Bloggers who buy EVERYTHING
Unless I happen to be following a lot of super rich blog followers, how in the hell do some of you have money to buy every single monthly subscription along with designer clothes, necklaces, etc.  Seriously, if you have found some money pit that continually gives out money, let me know.  I can use some of that to pay off some bills.

Bloggers who Love Starting Twitter Drama
We ALL know who these bloggers are.  They seem to always put up controversial/mean/rude/stupid tweets and then personally attack other tweeters.  Then it blows up to followers attacking every one who happens to reply.  The start of the twitter war where some of us partake in, and some just grab the popcorn while laughing at how grown adults become the high school "mean" girls.  Classy I tell you.

Bloggers Who Fluff Up Their Life
The beauty of blogging is being able to meet other awesome bloggers.  We all say we are true to our blogs and honest.  But let's face it, if all of your blog posts are about how awesome your  marriage is, how awesome your child/children are, how awesome your job is.... we know you are lying.  Life is never great.  Life has it's up AND downs.  If you claim to be "real" on your blog, then let me see a post where you hate your husband for not putting the toilet seat down and telling us how your problem child ate crayons for the 13th time.  It's OK.  We read to know about your life and how you handle it...that includes the bad times.  And I will say, when I post about things not going so great, the support and motivation I get from comments is beyond awesome.  So, let your hair down and truly be you.

Any other type of #BloggerProbs you face???  Let me know, let's just get it out there!

National Ladies Day Out! Meet-Up in NJ!

I saw this post over at You're my favorite today, who is HILARIOUS so if you aren't following her then do that now,  and just had to share! 

So here's the scoop. -

On Wednesday, October 16 at locations all over the United States (sorry Canada) many of the authors/bloggers from I Just Want To Pee Alone and other hysterical blogging friends are hosting a National Night Out. 

That's right. THE FIRST ANNUAL I JUST WANT TO PEE ALONE DAY, or what will be referred to from here on out as #FAIJWTPAD.  A night where we're all drinking too much wine on the very same night.

How is that different than last night, you ask? 

Well, for starters, we (probably) won't be in our pjs screeching at our children to go to bed. 

Don't live near your favorite blogger but want to get in on the fun? 

All the #FAIJWTPAD events are located on the I Just Want To Pee Alone Facebook page (<< that's a LINK!). Find the city nearest you, change out of your yoga pants, smear on a little lipstick and get ready to meet a lot of new friends! And don't be intimidated, you know you already have something huge in common with everyone else there (your great taste in books....and bloggers).

And if there isn't one planned for a city near you, don't fret, because YOU can host one of your very own! Just pick a location and time for October 16. It doesn't need to be fancy, something casual tends to work best, anyway. Once you've got the details set, email Jen at sweetsadiecreations@gmail.com and she'll add your event to the page!

So keep checking the events Facebook page, because new events are being added all the time.

You all know that I don't have kids, but I posted on the FB wall that I have a husband and dog and frankly, I sometimes can't pee alone either.  So, for all you NJ bloggers please come out and join the fun.  Check out the FB invite for the NJ event!  I will be there!!!!!  Would love to see familiar faces and new ones! 

Crazy Weekend Up Ahead

Hey you bloggy peeps!

Let me just tell you that it is 4:57pm here which means we are getting pretty darn close to 5:30 which means I am out of work and off to enjoy a packed weekend.

I believe hubs and I are going to see a movie tonight but I do have a couple of errands to do before.
Tomorrow I am hitting the gym in the morning to a cycling class because the instructor who is fun will be subbing it tomorrow.  Since I am now working, I don't get to take his class anymore but tomorrow should be a good workout.  Plus, I have slacked off and need to get back into the groove of things.

Then I have a million other errands to run since next weekend I won't be home because I will be at a bachelorette party for the bestie!! WOOP WOOP.

Then Sunday, hubs and I are heading with my parents to CT to visit family.

Told you it was super crazy.

But I want to first talk about something that I really contemplated on letting you guys know.  This HURTS me to say, but I found a chin hair a few months back. That's right, a CHIN hair.  I almost flipped a shit because what 30 year old get s a chin hair?!?!?  ME, THAT'S WHO.    Today, that chin hair decided to make another appearance.  I plucked that thing out and said some pretty mean words to it.  I don't want it to come back, but I have a feeling it will.  I texted my bestie Raff and told her.

Her response: "told you 30 everything gets worse"

BUT I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT RAFF!  But she is totally right.  Damn it I hate it when she's right.

So, anyone know of a secret potion that will rid me of this chin hair forever and ever?????

Better Late Than Never

Instead of writing how awesome my past weekend was, I'll just show you in pictures.

You're welcome.

Piano playing for 2 1/2 hours!

My dad went to his very first car show with his classic car!

The NY Giants played.

They ended up playing horribly and this is how sis-in-crime looked.  It was not a pleasant night for us at all.

And of course I have to sneak in a pic of Sadie and I rocking our curly hair.

And even though today it's about 95 degrees here with 100% humidity, I am still confident that Fall is really coming.

Take This Moment

Today is a day of remembrance.  9/11 unfortunately will never be just another date.  Living in NJ so close to NYC made this tragedy hit home hard.  We all knew people, plural, that were affected by this tragedy.

All we can do is honor them everyday.
All we can do is pray for them everyday.
All we can do is make a promise to live our life to the fullest.

No one is guaranteed a tomorrow.  Heck, we are not even guaranteed what will happen within the next hour.    But what we are guaranteed is the present moment.  In that present moment we must make the best of it because just like that, the present becomes the past.

I urge you to go out there today and every day enjoying life to the fullest.  Tell your loved ones how much they mean to you.  Try to be positive rather than negative.

ENJOY LIFE.

Simply put.

Today I am challenging myself that instead of crying when I see the memorials on TV, hear the horrid stories of what happened and the stories of "where were you when it happened", I will put a smile on my face.  I will make someone giggle today.  I will make people think happy thoughts rather than negative.  I will get through the day not being sad, but grateful for what I have in my life.

Bad shit happens, let's not dwell on it because that's how they win.  Instead, let's rise from hate and be warriors of peace and love.  Even a little change can make a big difference a long the way.

Join me in being a warrior today and everyday.

Weekend Shenanigans

This morning I just want to sleep the day off as I just don't feel good today.  But I am sure it has to do with the amazing weekend I had.

• Slip n Slide day at my sisters with the family on Saturday.  Let's just say we ended the summer with a huge bang, along with our banged up bodies from the slip n slide. Ouch. 
• Saturday night went to my moms house for a BBQ with my dad's family where I laughed so much with my cousins.  And of course, good food was had. 
• Then went back to my sisters Saturday night and did some more slip n slide at night.  This is probably why I don't feel so hot today.  Something about running down a slip n slide with really cold water when it was in the low 70s.  
• Sunday went to run some errands with my mom during the day.
• Then picked up my niece and nephew and went with my mom to my dad's first classic car show!  Pics to come tomorrow because I have yet to edit them. 
• Then came home with the kids and cleaned up a bit gearing up for a night of football. 
• Apparently the Giants forgot how to play football on Sunday night's game and though that having multiple turnovers was a good thing.  Let's just say we were so upset.  

That's all I got for you now.  I just can't function today.  My brain is mush. Head hurts. Stuffy nose.

Welcome to Tuesday. 

I am off to grab some breakfast down at my job's cafeteria because they seriously make the best sandwiches for cheap.  

Then going to grab coffee so I can eventually wake up. 

I believe...

I believe in...

• timing, everything happens for a reason.
• puppy snuggles.
• wrapping myself up with the comforter when the AC is on and I am too cold to get up and lower the temperature.
• giggling every day.
• politics not being discussed with anyone, because it always goes too far.
• standing up for what you post while having valid reasons to back up your opinion.
• friendships that shape who you are at the present moment.
• forgiveness.
• being the biggest cornball around my husband, have to remind him why he decided to marry me. ;)
• being silly with your friends, those become the best memories.
• chocolate.  It always makes everything better.
• faith.
• making mistakes.
• not being perfect.
• in God.  He made me and He always is there through both good and bad times. 

What do you believe in?

Labor Day at the Pet Hospital is Always Fun! NOT

I sure do hope you all had a great labor day weekend.  Our weekend started off with my mom and dad getting a new car!

Then on Sunday we headed to my best friend's house in PA for some relaxation.  It was great relaxation until Sunday night when Sadie decided to sneak into their basement and mess around with some rat poison.  We were not sure if she ate some pellets or not, but I induced vomiting within the hour.  The next morning I called Banfield hospital that was close to where we were staying at and told them the situation.  Unfortunately, they didn't have the meds needed in stock.  So we packed up and headed home so I can go to our Banfield hospital where I called before to make sure they had the medicine.  We got to the hospital and considering we weren't 100% sure if she ate some or not, the doc said it would be best to start her on the treatment because if left untreated, she can get really sick and die. Truth. So, Sadie now has to take a Vitamin K pill twice a day for 4 weeks and then a test at the end to make sure her blood is clotting as it is suppose to.  I was scared shitless ESPECIALLY after googling what can go wrong when dogs eat rat poison.  It is not pleasant.  If you have a dog, don't ever buy that stuff because you simply don't know.  And when away, make sure you are aware of surroundings and what people may have in their house.  We should have checked to make sure there was no way for her to get to basement, but she snuck by when the gate wasn't up and door was open.  Luckily, we took the precautions needed.  Here's hoping Sadie doesn't have any side effects and handles the Vitamin K regimen well.  I am just glad to say that she is going to be OK.  I was worried about the meds if she hadn't eaten the pellets but the doctor said it wouldn't hurt her either way, so we went with the regimen to be safe.  She is currently knocked out next to me on the couch and I am pretty sure she didn't eat those dam pellets, but I will not gamble with her life because as you all know, she is my daughter and I will do everything for her to be safe.

Clearly Sadie is feeling perfectly fine.

So while driving home, the hubs told me about the news of the casting of the Fifty Shades of Grey movie.  HELLO Mr. Christian Grey!

At first, I didn't recognize who it was because I know this hotty from Sons of Anarchy show where he looks like this:

He is super duper hot in that show.  Now I really can't wait to see this movie with him.

I hope your Labor Day weekend was a bit better than ours!

And it is also the "unofficial" first day of Fall which means hello to hot cocoa with marshmallows and football!