Nov 20, 2012

Music is in my blood

I am your music geek... well, at least in high school I was a full blown out music geek.  Now I'm just a regular music geek.

My passion is playing the piano.  I have played since I was small and LOVE it.  I also love to sing.  And I also played the clarinet through middle school and high school.

I just recently realized that I used playing the piano as a stress reliever.  It makes me happy to sit in front of the piano and play my heart out. I put ALL of my emotions into it.  There were many of times that when I was playing at home by myself, I would end up crying.  That's my love for it.  With music, I can let out all my emotions with full force.  That's the best way to play music.  Everyone use to tell me how much they loved seeing me play piano because they can feel the music. They can feel the emotion. I guess that's the gift I had. I am not trying to toot my own horn here, I am just saying how it is.

I don't play often anymore because my piano is at my mother's house and it's not an easy piece of furniture to move, especially when you live in an apartment.

Last night, I got to go back to my old high school.  We were there for a resolution ceremony for the choir director of many many years who retired in 2006.  He is very very ill now. He was not able to make it last night.  But alumni did. They were people there who graduated in 1979!!!  It was AMAZING.  Tears were had. Funny moments were had. But, we also got to do something special. It is tradition in my town that at every winter concert, the choir always sings Handel Messiah's Hallelujah Chorus.  The best part is that any choral alumni can go up on stage and sing.  I haven't had a chance to do this since I haven't been to the winter concert, but last night, I got the chance. Let me tell you, it felt so great to sing up there in the choir.  I belted that shit out.  The song lyrics and musical parts came flooding back into bloodstream and I remembered every single note. I felt like I was on cloud nine.

Last night made me realize how much I miss music.  As in how much I miss playing music.  How much I miss singing.  It's in my blood and it is what God made me for. To rejoice in music.

My mission = find a full size keyboard that I can put in my apartment.  DONATIONS greatly accepted!!!!
But seriously, with the amount of stress I have in my life now, I KNOW for a fact that me playing again will get rid of it.  It worked all the time. Why did I stop? Because life happened.  Which is OK.  But you know what? I want to teach my kids one day how to play the piano and share with them the love I have for music.

So, who wants to donate money for my full size keyboard that I NEED????  Hint hint to hubs, friends, family members... if you all chip in, you can buy it for me for Christmas!!!

Some of you reading this might think it's silly that playing piano is a stress reliever.  Some of you might think that I'm stupid for crying while playing... but you may just simply not understand if you aren't a musician. When you become a musician, you know that there are two ways to play.
1. Just for fun to get by and look cool
2. Taking into consideration everything you learned from music theory to technique and most importantly  opening up your heart so beautiful music becomes your end result.

So, are you a music geek?  ;)


Ms. Networking said...

I wanna learn how to play. i know I'M so old I fart dust, but I would love to learn to play, and not just chopsticks. :D

<3 you!!! and I wish one day you'll play for me. I could totally sing on top of the piano like a good lounge singer.

Shanny said...

You should totally play and put it up on video here. If you have a gift you must share!
Definitely see how it can be a stress reliever, not that I play anything, but doing something you love does that you. I wish I could sing and play something too, but I can't and that's ok, I admire those of you who can! Love it and enjoy it!

lil desiqua said...

I'm a music geek. It was so bad in high school that I actually joined the competitive marching band, and have the jacket (and huge white plume) to prove it! I played the alto saxophone- I still have it, but haven't played in years!
I hope you get your keyboard!

Sidenote: When I was 8 I wanted desperately to play the piano, but they said my hands were too small. But now I have super long fingers- go figure!

Kim S said...

I am right there with you! Music is the best way for me to relieve stress. I grew up playing piano too, and even though I haven't played in a few years, it always feels so great to get the music out. Singing is my main passion, but I really just love it all :)

Jen said...

I really wish I knew how to play an instrument the only thing I can play is the radio haha. :)