Can we say ANXIETY?!?!?! I am pretty sure this stemmed from everyone around us getting pregnant and me going into overdrive thinking about when is it REALLY a good time to pop one out and also spending all day Saturday with a bunch of kids and their parents.
I was sitting there watching all the kids play and it was like fairies and bluebirds singing...


Well, the dream last night scared me to death. It is a sign that something may go wrong when I have baby? Do you all believe in those type of signs? I don't even know if I do. Or is it my anxiety that is just getting to me. Please note, I supposedly have a HUGE anxiety problem all of a sudden. So, it is possible that my brain is on overload. I know, I am not suppose to let my anxiety get to me, but it's a bit hard when it becomes to be a serious issue. My cardiologist is probably happy with the money he got from when all it was was dam anxiety that makes my heart rate go no slower than 90 beats per minute.
Yeah, this is my anxiety. I am recognizing it now. Time to de-stress myself and lower my heart rate before I get dizzy. Ugh. Life is real funny sometimes huh?
On another note, it's Monday and a new week. I am excited for what this week has to bring.
Other note, I drank a glass of wine while cooking last night. Felt so nice and relaxing. I felt like I was one of those rich housewives who drink wine while they cook and come out with a perfect meal. Yeah.... it was a badass moment for me.
Note to self: Pick up bottle of wine. This should be a nightly thing.
Holy shit, I just started a new label: babies. Shit is getting real. This baby fever needs to get CURED. Any ideas? And having a baby is not a cure at this time. Think of something else. Seriously. I need help!
~*~Mrs. Newlywed Giggles~*~
2 comments:
Wow! I'm shocked you didn't wake up in tears. That's what usually happens to me in that situation...
That's really heavy and CLEARLY you are just thinking consiously and subconsiously into this "do I wanna be a mom" thing. But here's the deal - it's really up to you and the hubs. Sounds like right now is NOT the time for it though... LOL :)
God bless ya girl!
bahahaha, I don't know if i have a babies label quite yet, but there have been a couple times i may have gotten close - but I JUST CANT DO IT! LOL.
babysit for two days. that'll cure it :P
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