Jul 17, 2012

Brain throw up

Man, this day totally went from feeling good to let me find a hole to crawl in to and have no one bother me.

So many things running through my head right now that I can't get a handle of them.  They are getting the best of me.  Dam thoughts.
  • This heat is unbearable
  • I miss a friend. I don't think they realize though. How easy people forget the one who was always there.  :::sigh::::
  • I am having a really tough time with the whole to bring or not to bring a human being into this world that will bear our name.  Like, this shit is really tough and playing with my dam emotions. Want to know what makes it harder? The close people to us keep nagging as well.  You are not helping things, so stop.
  • I am so happy I started blogging again regularly. I missed y'all. Amazing some of the friendships I have here. 
  • Why is it so hard for people to understand why I blog?  You know, the people = non-bloggers.  They think it's a waste of time. Well, I am here to tell you it's not.  It's not a waste of time because it's not YOUR time.  It's my time. I love blogging. I have my reasons and if you don't like it, then don't read it. But if you are a non-blogger and read my blog, THANK YOU for being awesome.  Leave me a comment letting me know.  Please. So I can thank you in person as well the next time I see you.  You are being supportive of me and that makes me happy.
  • Why do certain things seem to take forever to fall into place??!?!?!?!  grrrrr
  • I have to keep reminding myself this : I am ME. That's all that matters.  I may not be perfect, but I am ME.
  • I have failed at many things in life.  Some things I am not proud of. But it's the past, I can only look to the future. Cheers to changing those fails into successes.  I WILL do it. Even if it's by myself kicking and screaming and failing fifty more times before I get it right. At least I will be doing something, whether small or big.
  • I feel like bursting out into tears right now because I am just so overwhelmed with emotions.
  • That time of the month REALLY throws in a monkey wrench.  Please let this week be over sooner than later so I can handle my head again.
  • Why on earth do women have to suffer from mother effin cramps?!?!!?  I. want. to. rip. my. insides. out. NOW.
  • Did I tell you all that I have the cutest pups ever? I do. I really do. 
  • I challenge you to go to someone today and tell them that they are beautiful.  Those words, you are beautiful, do A LOT for a person. Go do it. I'll start... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
  • I am excited to go to church tomorrow.  I am really liking the new place.  I feel so ...free. God is good.
  • I wish I became a writer.   I think I would have been good at it.
  • I miss my best friend who is having a baby. Like a lot. I wish she lived closer. So I can be there throughout all her firsts with her pregnancy.  Maybe because I can live through for awhile.  I am beyond excited for her and just wish I go baby shopping with her, help her decorate the baby's room, be there waiting in the waiting room for my niece/nephew's arrival. I will be there in spirit, but it's just not the same.
  • After throwing this pity party, I realized how lucky I am to be on this earth today. 
  • Thank you for reading this crap of a post of me just throwing up my thoughts. It just seems so much easier to write it out then talk it out.  Pretty sure my best friend is going to call me right away and yell at me for not letting them know.  hahahaa... Always happens.
  • Also, my husband is pretty awesome.  I always tell him, but I don't think he understands how awesome I think he is. Hubs, I know I piss you off, but you do the same to me. We're even. K? But, I love you.  I love you like a shit ton. I love you like a fat kid loves cake.  That is all. :)
Happy Tuesday bloggy peeps.  Go out there and tell someone their beautiful.

~*~Mrs. Newlywed Giggles~*~

4 comments:

Pedaling Sunshine said...

First, You are fabulous. Whether you realize it today or tomorrow, you're one of the most amazing people I know and I couldn't have asked my little brother to marry a better person than you.

Second, if you didn't notice...you're already a writer..I mean come on, you've already written a few paragraphs, that constitutes writing therefore you are a writer. BOOM you're done, good job my friend. now if you want to be an author of books, GET CRACKALACKIN THE WORDS ARE THERE JUST WRITE THEM! xoxoxoxo love you
MANITA-EN-CRIMEN.

=)

Shanny said...

Hey YOU: You are beautiful!

And its a fact, I'm not just saying it cause you told me to tell someone. The truth is the truth my friend.

I laugh, you know why? because I also wanna cry. TOM has me overly sensitive and yes... wassup with excruciating cramps? So not cool.

Nikki said...

WOMAN YOU ARE AMAZING!

Dont worry about kids right now enjoy your newlywed life! If your going to have kids it will happen when it happens. When people ask you about it tell them to get off your sh*t.

If ppl got something against you blogging SCREW them!

Hormones suck! I had to deal with mine the other week and I cried an ya know what? It felt good! DO IT!

You my friend are BEAUTIFUL. Dont forget that!

You have every right to throw yourself a pitty party from time to time. Your a human!

Keep your chin up! Also, if ya need a good laugh or just a shoulder to lean on, txt me or email me!

Shannon said...

So I love your post! Sometimes we all need to vent. Not vent to an actual person, but just to the world of "bloggy peeps" who aren't going to interupt or even add their opinions. Keep your head up! Thanks for being so honest!