Jun 26, 2012

I just feel...

like nothing.
Nothing.
It's weird.  I am just so not in a good place right now.  And I blame it all on stress.  Stress about my job. Stress about home. Stress about me. Stress about everything.  And I don't want to hear "Don't stress about things..." because in the end, if I don't do things around the house and at work, it just simply won't get done. So, I have to stress about it.

You want to know what would be nice? If I came home from work and was able to sit down and watch TV and snuggle with the pup while someone else cooks dinner and cleans up. That would be nice.

Something else that would be nice is to hire a cleaning lady to come to my apartment and do a deep clean.  I have slacked at this. But with things being so busy in our lives, the free moment I have I want to sit and relax for a long amount of time, not like the 10 mins here and there I get currently,  because I don't get to do that when I come home from work during the week let alone the weekends.
I am seriously considering hiring a cleaning lady for the day.

What would be nice if laundry never existed.  I loath doing the laundry.  Laundry fairies, where you at?

Another thing that would be nice is if I can be OK with who I am today and remind myself to be PATIENT. My patience is slipping away little by little and I have a bad feeling it's going to make way for not so nice Mrs. Newlywed Giggles.

Something else that would be nice would be if I can chocolate all day long and not feel an ounce of guilt.

Another thing that would be nice, if my dog would stop peeing on my blankets, hence having to do laundry, hence the blankets still balled up in a corner, because I don't want to do laundry because it's effin tiring!

Sorry for the deb downer this morning, but I just don't feel like myself anymore.  I think my problem is I think too much. Everything seems to be spiraling downhill.  A break would be nice.
So, to lift my spirits up, I am downing a protein smoothie shake and will be reading my new book at lunchtime.  The book is filled with inspiration so I am hoping this helps to take me out of this darn rut.


smoothiebook

Hope your Tuesday is not a bummer like mine is today.

~*~Mrs. Newlywed Giggles~*~

4 comments:

Nikki said...

GIRL I totally feel you on this and ya know what it is so okay to feel off and need to just vent it out. Ya know what why dont you look for a cleaning lady to come in like once a month? I have one come in 2 times a month and it is a GOD SEND! I swear its just so helpful! I live alone and have to do EVERYTHING on my own and sometimes its just so overwhelming. I get it! Keep your chin up its a passing moment you will get through this.

Shanny said...

Stress sucks monkey balls =(
I totally understand what you are going through.... well, I'm recently jobless but while I don't miss the work stress I have a whole new stress to add to my life.
I haven't heard of that book, let us know what you thought of it when you are done, I hope your Wednesday is much better ((hugs))

Mrs. Monologues said...

Oh friend I am so sorry! Hoping things start to look up for you.

Kristen Seuberling said...

Oh man... every time I see a Living Social deal for a cleaning service, I am so tempted to click the buy button! I think every woman out there knows how you feel, maybe it's time to treat yourself.

Hope tomorrow is a better day...